you forget to teach me how to live without you..

I NEED YOU.

its hard to live without you here by my side. i want to talk to u like we used to do. but.. i dont even know how to talk with you now, to tell all of these thing. i want you to know, but im like....

................................................................. :'(

It's the time.. & I, Love, you :)

Hello. For the top of the all, you're "the first man", Blog. Hahaha I really miss ya... (?) umm can I start to tell sumtin here? is it okay?

Ok. So... what I want to tell is this, "we" are not longer in relationship :)

its the time when im really crying. I dont want, but its fall from itself and it started to touch my cheek then going down to my lips. It had a sound HAHAHHA. Now, I'm only have a Thanks and Sorry, for EVERYTHING. Everything I've made, everything we've gone through, everything that ever happened in our relationship... it's just EVERY-THING :)

We've been together for 1 years and 12 days. 12 months and 12 days. 377 days. and 9048 hours. It's not a short time to be together, nooooo it really wasnnnnt!!! and it's proved that.. we're strong :D :D

now... I'm apologizing for the mistake(s) that I've made. I'M STOOOOPID. and I promise to you... I wud fix it all, ALLLLL OF THIIIIIISSS. I dont want to be a stupid girl for the second time, for you. Sorry for the pain, I'll pay all of it. and it's also mean, thankyou for your patience. I payed all of it with my heart :):):)

Agum.....

Thankyou for everything.. I can't stop telling this words. I never really talked to you about everything, ryt? and I'm never talked fluently & clearly like I wrote everything in here when I talked to you, ryt? hummm i'm sorry, I don't even remember since when I can't really talk to someone, even it was you. Yap, I can't...... I CAN'T, hate to say it but it's the fact. Sorry :( So, bcs of it I wrote this thing... I want you to know, what I never tell to you. what I really want you to know.

Gum.. U make me feel special. I'm special, u're special, we're... Special :)

I dont know what I want to say now.. as I've told before that I have no things to say anymore, I'm only have Thanks and Sorry:')

So... duuuuh Gum! I hope it's the best way for us. I hope we both can be a better person. It's not the end, it's the start of sumtin new. Don't be afraid, I always with you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, with all of my heart in it. XOXO ({}) ♥♥♥♥♥ :'}

5 June 2010♥

5 June in 2011♥

Hoaaahm...

WUTS UP GUYYYSSSZZZ?!?!??!?!?!?!?! DID YA MISS ME?? :D:D:D:D haha. Long time to not posting ryt? hmm and hell yeah there are so many story that I hv to tell, or maybe not all of 'em, I just want to tell u some of it. So, let's begin!;)

Yang pertama (pindah-pindah bahasa; hmm yunomisowell lah :p)

Barrrrruuuuuuu aja nih kejadian kemarin. Tepatnya tanggal 10 Juni, hari Jumat. Gue dikasih surprise sama mv... kok bisa? Iyalah tanggal 5 juni kemarin, gue ulang taon getoh! Huahahahahahahaha ok jejeeeee' bgt. Tapi bener hehe baru aja aku ultah kiukiu 16 thn loh. Wishesnyaaaaa... banyakkk, tapi semoga apa yang gue inginkan akan dikabulkan oleh Allah swt, dan menjadi pribadi yang semakin baik baik baik dan juga masuk IPA! Amin. Let's see what they've did to me :"

Ya begitulah betapa baik dan sekaligus kejamnya mereka. Big thanks for My Marvvinnite and some of Genoven whos in there. You've know it guys, that I always have a big heart for you all. And also thanks for this guy... Agum hehe. Omong-omong Agum, selain tanggal 5 kemarin gue ulang tahun, gue juga setahunan sama anak ininih!!!!!! ahahahaha♥

Gue tetep dapet countdown loh dari dia pas udah mau tanggal 5. Sooo.. terimakasih gum untuk setahun ini, 1 tahun penuh kesabaran. Walaupun banyak kenyataan yang nyatanya membuat kita kadang pantas untuk menyerah ya but u've prove it, u still beside me untill now :')

Anugerah Gumelar Adityana

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Art isn't about.. whos that person

Mereka mengatakan musik itu indah.

Mereka tersenyum mendengar musik berupa-rupa

Audio Slave dengan "Like A Stone" nya

Jet dengan "Look What You've Done" nya

atau The Beatles dengan "Hey Jude" nya

Diatas itu semua mereka menemukan musik kesukaannya dan terlena mendengar musik favoritnya.

that is a poetry from a three-wheeler driver (bajaj). He's totally shocked me... tadinya takut ngeliatnya, karena dia itu gondrong gitu. Gataunya, pas naik dia nyalain musik dan ngasih gue koran kumpulan puisi-puisi, he said "nih baca aja.. dari pada bengong" and i only said, "hah? oh.... iya" then i found this poetry.

Yeah, art isnt about who made it. to make a great thing of art, we dont have to be expert first. Art is Our Soul. Thats come from our heart, and with the help of mind it wud be... a great thing. I Really Do Love Art. its some refreshing. So everybody have their own "Art"! because art isnt about whos that person :D

He's Another "Katy Perry"

you're so hypnotizing.

could you be the devil, could u be an angel. and you're touch magnetizing.

This boy, the boy whos being with me for 11 months. it wasnt a short time to be together. and.. i dont know. He's just... Hypnotizing. Thank you :)

21 April kemarin, dia ulang tahun dan gue ngasih dia kado, kaya greeting photo gitu. Isinya foto orang yang megang tulisan "Happy Birthday Adityana, 21 April 2011 :)". Kebanyakan bulee neeeeh! harga diri lgsg drop buat minta mereka foto :') Sebenernya ini ide dari Vitha, tadinya mau kasih dia lukisan cuma ternyata waktu untuk ngelukisnya gak cukup, ya jadi akhirnya foto ini deh yg jadi. So... wanna see it? ok here they areeeee!

this is Vitha, thankyou for ur brilliant idea:*! and she's the photographer for all of this photo.

dainty! thankyou for being our speaker, harga dereee booo (LOL) :'D

and this is Indira. the Prayer Girl :'D hahahaha

the only child of all these photos. fyi, to took her pict we must stalking her to the toilet! PHEW :'$

the stewardess in our flight

another "bule" that we found in the toilet! :P the women on the right side was very kind :')

he's... SHOCKING GUUYYY! DAAAAMMMMN, HIS SMILE'S LIKE... *!@#$^die*

pertamanya dia jutek gitu, gataunya pas difoto.... SENYUMNYA BO!! YAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA KICEP SEMUANYA <3

Trio Kwek-Kwek :P

he's the first man who we took the pict!! and he said, "jangan keliatan mukanya ya.." :P

one word... Nyolot. oh, or maybe Kobam -_-"

BUNCH OF THANKS FOR THEM!

re : i got a tissue, and pen to wrote that greeting paper from them :'P

we running-running (lari2) for her -_-

KK OJYEEEEK ;D

em.... Forget -_-"

he's pretty cute, ryt? :p

another first people..

she said.. Happy Burrrrthday :D

"wow... you're very creative" :'D first people who said that..

trust me... both were crazy haha. Woman on the right said, "BBBINTAAAAANG.." LOL

and the Prettiest Bulezxcwtsy!@#$%^

said...

"Happy Birthday Adityana" :D:D:D

im going to nowhere..

its weird.

i dont even know what it is. i dont know what i want. i dont know what had happened. i dont know what shud i do. i dont know what the start, and whats for the end. i dont know... yaa, i just DONT KNOW.

i cant tell ya that it isnt me. no. i dont know who i am. shud, is it me? or... well, its me :) its weird ryt?

i feel that so many problems come to my life. SOOOOOOO MMMMAAAANNNNNNY

but the facts is... nothing happened. nothing happen right, and nothing happen wrong. this is just, NOTHING HAPPENED.

I CANT ENJOY MY FUCKIN LIFE, ASS I USED TO!

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HALU! IS THAT BAD WELCOME? HAHAHAHA. Sorry for that one. Yeah, the only fact is a want to Cry right now. Or found my Dyfani Life Story Book to know what had happened :p

Aduh mulai dari mana ya.... Mulai dari perasaan aja deh. ESESESESES! wkwk gak gitu deng, baru ngerasain nih yang namanya galau seribu galau, pokoknya galau 1000% deh ahaha. Teruuuus, belum cerita ya kalo kemarin sempet liburan ke Bali? Belom kaaaaannn?? Hahah oke nnti kuceritakan, menunggu foto selesai diupload semua aja ya biar afdol :D

Sebenernya bingung banget tau harus mulai dari mana, sebenernya mau cerita apa. Kayaknya gak ada yang bisa diceritain kalo udah buka blog ini. Tapi kalo lagi gak bukaaaaa... BEUUUHHHH numpuk!! Rasanya cuma blog aja yang bisa ngerti hehehe. Oh iyadeng pokoknya tentang curhat gitu, merasa.... Asing, sama semuanya. Kaya yang dulu lagi ternyataaa ahaha, sedih kali la awak ni, butuh MV kalii. Apa la rasa kalo nggak ada mereka. Pening pala awak kadang ni, mikir sebenernya kenapa la. Gak jelaaas gitu. Pokoknya yang awak tau, awak mau nangis di depan mereka. Sayangnya susah kali pun awak jumpa mereka, hehehe weekend aja belum tentu awak bisa jumpa. Lain kali laya, semoga bisa secepatnya:)

Daaaaaaaan... Gue lagi memantapkan diri masuk IPA neeeh cooooy!!! esese akhirnya hahaha. Doain yaaa ;) Berat bebanku nich, masalahnya agak bebel sama pelajaran Fisika dan tentunya Matematika. Tapi yaaa liat aja nanti deh mudah2an semakin dapet pencerahan semakin kesini. Doakaaaaaan ya kawan, semoga bisa masuk IPA!!!! Amin ya rabbal alamin :D:D

HEHEHEHE yasudahdeh udah dulu. Tuh....... Gajelas kan -_- wkwkw gapape ye yang penting gak dibilang Blogger Kafir yak wkwkw apacoba. Syudaaah ah bubuuuyy! kishbrocyincuss<3

bingung :S

HAIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!

DOHDOHDOH AWAWAWAWAWAW KANGENNNNNNN BANGETTTTTTTT!!!!! AGILA GILA GILA >0<

Hahaha berlebihan ya? maafkan, habis kangen sekali dengan blog ini, lama banget kayaknya gak nulis, sediiih :'( HEHEHE lama tidak menulis, berarti semakin banyak hal-hal yang bisa di share. Cuma mungkin gak akan di bahas semuanya sekarang hehehe. Yuk mulai...

Pertama, GUE LIBUR. YES AJA GAK YES BANGET! ZZZ gak punya firasat baik dengan yang satu ini-_-

Kedua beritanya dari hari ini dan kemarin. Guess what? I met MV's girls, finally!!! :'D kemarin gue kerumah Indah , perginya sama Meydi, cerita-cerita seperti biasa dan tanpa sadar gue baru pulang jam setengah 8 hehehehe. Dan hari ini gue kerumah Meydi, haha menclok2 mulu ya dirumah orang. Sebenernya hari ini gak direncanain pengen kerumah Meydi, cuma karena tiba2 Via ngajak jadi yasudahlahhh, terjadilaaah~ dan akhirnya Nia datang menyusul saat Via pulang huhu. YEAAA A6 (re: asix:p) ! tau aja gue lagi butuh mereka banget. Sekedar liat muka mereka aja bisa bikin tenang rasanya, kaya baru ketemu nyokap sendiri aja hahaha lebay sih, tapi ya

bener -_- So, big thanks kitties! mwaaahhhhhhh:*

Lalu yang Ketiga. Gue lagi.... super duper trooper bingung.

AHH parah deh bingungnyaaaa! dan dalam berbagai hal bingungnya. Bingung sekolah, loplaip, uang, dan lain-lain. Tapi yang lebih mendominasi mungkin sekolah, atau lebih tepatnya PENJURUSAN. Gue gak pernah nyangka gue bakal sesulit ini milih antara kelas IPA atau IPS, dan gue juga gak pernah nyangka kalau ortu bakal menentang. Ah gitu deh gatau bingung... Bukannya mau membodohi diri sendiri, tapi gue bener-bener gak mahir dalam hal hitung menghitung. Ok gue bisa belajar, tapi seberapa lama sih gue bisa bertahan? yang membuat gue ingin masuk IPA cuma karena cita-cita gue, yaitu jadi Dokter....

Sempet denger sih Dokter juga bisa dari IPS, cuma yaaa gitulah berat. Tapi dilain sisi gue udah cukup mengecewakan mereka dari awal masuk SMA, masa iya gue masih mau mem-pertahankan masuk IPS yang jelas-jelas mereka tentang. Ya Allah... Semoga gue cepet dapet petunjuk dan jalan, aminnn :')

Lalu... loplaip ya? haha karena udah terlanjur curhat, lanjutin aja ya :-P

Love life, tidak memungkiri kalau ada sedikit "kesalahan teknis" dalam hal ini hehe. Mungkin sempet di bawa pusing, di bawa berat. Cuma gue sadar gak begitu juga caranya. Bukan mau bersikap sok bijaksana ngomong kaya gini atau gimana... tapi ya ini yang mungkin gue lagi pikirin. Ini yang sebenernya lagi gue coba untuk jalanin. dan tadi, nia said..

"Do not make it a choice ta.."

So, now all I thinking is....

"Stay positive thinking and calm. Just believe that God gave it because he love us, you love me and I loveyou. There's always any way to solve, beside many problems that came in. Be patient.. we can get through this, Gum" ♥ :'D

Yaudah mungkin begitulah hehe kita bisa kok! Gue juga harus bisa!.....

HUAHHH maaf ya kalo postingannya krik2, yaudah skrg mau share sedikit foto ajadeh haha. Refreshing dikit laaah (?) B-)

FYI. Now I'm crazy about Damn-Right Quotes, Beach, Blondie Girl, Peace Sign, BLAIIIINE/Darren Chris :p! and JUSTIN BIEBER HAHAHAHA DARI DULU DENG :D

Sudah deh makin gajelas internet connection mengabal. Padahal gambarnya belum semua, AH C-U-P-U! Dadah, see you :D:D:D ♥